It means Pregnancy Test in Spanish! I bought 2 yesterday, because I know I won’t be able to hold out the full 2 week wait!
Today is my last day in Spain, tonight I fly to Tokyo via a few hours in Istanbul. I’m looking forward to getting stuck in to work, and catching up with colleagues, but I will really miss this little set up here in Barcelona. I read somewhere that we spend less than 80 minutes per day engaged in productive work, but I feel like here, on my own, I’m getting a few solid hours of work done and I’ve really enjoyed it. I can sit down and tackle a task, unlike when my boss is around and I get constant interruptions and admin tasks assigned! So, even if this IVF cycle fails, one thing I have got is that renewed enjoyment of work, even if only temporarily. It feels good to be engaged. But I hope it’s only for 9 months and then I’ll be off on maternity leave….fingers crossed!
I walked around my local neighbourhood and stopped for coffee and a croissant at one of the cafes in the square. Of course, being 9am, it was only me and the street cleaners! Haven’t quite got used to the Spanish schedule for mealtimes. When the Doctor told me I had to fast from 10pm before the general anaesthetic she was shocked when I told her I go to bed at 9.30! I love that I have my local places here, the greengrocers, the corner store and the benches in the square that get the most sun during the day, coming here was one of the best decisions I’ve made.
Ive been a bit superstitious about this place though. I need a 2019 calendar for home, and saw a great Gaudi one, but couldn’t bring myself to buy it. I’m not sure I could handle looking at Barcelona scenes for another 11 months if this cycle is a failure. Part of me wants to buy some little baby things here too. I think it would be special to have them,
if when my baby arrives. But I don’t want to tempt fate. I wish I could stop overanalysing and just get on with enjoying the moment.